I think God gave me New York and all its hard, unanswerable questions so I would finally begin to face the reality of a messy world, a cursed world, a groaning world. There is no magic spell, no secret wisdom that will solve the problem of pain, of haves and have-nots. God gave me New York so I would understand how dark and deep sin lies within the walls of this city and within my own heart. He gave me New York to give me a holy discontentment with this world and a longing for my true home.
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All His Plans
I am finding that it is sometimes even harder to believe in God’s providence when looking back at a hard, weary season. It is then that I feel insufficient for the question, “What has God been teaching you?”
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Life’s Little Day
I want to, need to, live each moment with death pressing so close. I want to live undeluded, wide awake to sharp reality. I think this is the most honest way to live.
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With Each Passing Moment
“Already the past,” and still we cling to the last dregs of the moment, grasping, bargaining. But the present always invariably slides into the past, and the past does not belong to us. It becomes memory; it fades and creases.
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Even Now
And so, on the cusp of summer’s end, I am confronted with these two truths: that time is fleeting, and that I am bound to the present. Summer is quickly drawing to a close, but for me, even now, it is still summer. How I wish that time was forever and that I could change the future! But this is not so. The present moment is the lot the Lord has given to me now.
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Here and/or There
And as I sat by the window on my flight from D.C., the sun just sinking below the horizon, the sky slipping from amber and blue into dusk, I thought about goodbyes and airports and parting hugs and last looks. I have had many of these in the past year.
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