I think God gave me New York and all its hard, unanswerable questions so I would finally begin to face the reality of a messy world, a cursed world, a groaning world. There is no magic spell, no secret wisdom that will solve the problem of pain, of haves and have-nots. God gave me New York so I would understand how dark and deep sin lies within the walls of this city and within my own heart. He gave me New York to give me a holy discontentment with this world and a longing for my true home.